Most you know I cook. I’m not a great cook. I don’t always use the most expensive ingredients, but I am a bit of snob about food. If people are coming over, I want everything I serve to be homemade. One time that meant making a cake three times—I’m terrible at cakes!
It is not surprising than that during this lockdown I am cooking. The challenge is doing things that are interesting, not the same old, same old food, using food I have in the cupboard rather than popping out for an ingredient. I made pearl barley risotto one night. It was quite good. We have lots of bananas now. I can’t stand overripe bananas. In my troll through the internet for recipes I came across a recipe for baked banana doughnuts. But you need a doughnut pan.
So I confess, I made a non-essential purchase. I bought a doughnut pan on Ebay. I am sorry. I see the photos shaming people for buying non-essentials right now, but I have bought this pan. I checked that it is being sent from within the UK. I hope I am helping some lonely Ebay seller keep afloat, but I know it wasn’t essential.
Still I need a bit of joy. Joy does not come from the purchase. Joy comes from doing something for myself, trying something new, making space for creativity. Cooking, while a necessity, can be creative. These banana doughnuts are going to make me and David, I hope, smile. The birds in my garden, the paint on a canvas, the words on a page, the picture of a landscape, the laughter over FaceTime are a few things that bring joy in this time of essentials and simplicity. They don’t cost a lot, but they do bring a bit of joy.
Perhaps I have to confess, not that I bought something, but that I am still looking for joy. Where is your joy today?
I have another confession—I might need a pair of slippers. My stay-at-home feet are freezing. Warm feet are probably a necessity, but I’ll put on a pair of socks, for today.